Exam Day

Honestly, I only read the notes posted in adec as the preparation for today's exam. of course, I felt insecured that I kept asking my friends what they had read for the exam. Only a few of them did read the notes given by our seniors.

As usual, we rushed to the tables for we knew the tables would not be enough. Lucky for me. i managed to get one table. I got seated and was soon ready for the exam. However, the fact that some od my coursemates failed to get chairs were asked to find chairs somewhere else. I got anxious for I couold not wait anymore.

At last, we got the question paper. The questions sounded tough for me. Initially, I had no confidence to attempt those questions but since i was able to answer the first question well, the confidence was built. I answered the other 3 questions well but time was lacked. This lacked of time management made me very anxious. This anxiet did influence on the quality of my answers. I kept rushing and my ideas kept diminishing. So sad...

I was in fact the last person to hand in the answer sheets. Thanks to Madam Foziah for being so considerate. She gave me more time to rearrange my answer sheets and she was patient enough to wait for me to tie all my answer sheets up. All in all, i could not comment much on my answers for I was really exhausted.

Now, 3 hours had passed and I could still feel the exhaution. This proved how much energy and thinking I had put on in my exam and hopefully madam Foziah will b satisfied with my answers.

Tired and Exhausted

I was among one of the earliest to reach the computer lab today. Well, honestly it was quite predictable to have many latecomers for today because the day for assignment 3 submission was finally here.

Once madam Foziah opened the doors, most of us rushed in and busy compiling our assignments according to our groups. Seeing us so busy and messy, Madam Foziah gave us half an hour's time to do it. However, the time given seemed not to be enough. There were some members who were late. Thus, the compilation of the assignments were never complete.

Having waited for long enough, Madam Foziah began to ask us to form groups. And she started distributing a cd each to a group. Those cds contained interactive games and lessons which can be used in our lessons in the future. We were to explore whatever softwares contained in it and we were successful. Those softwares have successfully grabeed our attention and we could not stop exloring them further. Sadly, time was insufficient. MAdam Foziah then downloaded some softwares in the only lecturer computer and any of us who was interested could download it from there. Of course, I did not fail to retrieve the software. Hehe... Thanks to MadamFoziah for she was the one who guided me through the process of retrieving the file.

And of course, i was totally exhausted after all the hurdles i went through the day before to complete my assignment. Now, I want to concentrate more on my coming text and portfolios. Hopefully, I do not procrastinate this time for procrastinating had made me really really tired.

I rushed to the class today worrying i might be late for the class. Once i was late, the doors would be closed and I would be left outside the class and missed the lecture rightaway. Fortunately, the doors were still ajar and i let myself into the lab. Madam Foziah was seemed to be so excited sharing her raya experience with a few girls while other busying themselves talking among themselves. Sharing their raya holiday too, perhaps? i had no idea. i was more to thinking how i could get rid of all my sweat. I felt so hot due to the rush.

At last, Madam Foziah started talking to the whole class. Honestly, I disliked this moment for i was very worried to receive another new task for the week. Thank God...she instead gave us the whole lecture time to proceed to our assignment 3. I was so happy that I moved to 'my computer' rightaway to continue with my assignment. the fact that I saw Fikri showing Madam Foziah a school text book worried me. I did not even refer school textbooks for my assignment. i then asked Madam foziah about the matter and sadly I was told to do so. My mood became worse when I was told that my topic must be the one i drew lot a few weeks before. Oh.. I needed to start the assignment all over again.

MAdam Foziah advised me to use materials or teaching aids which are applicable to the present situation of teaching in shcools. Thus, i erased my plan of integrating smartboard in my assignment for it is not applicable to all malaysian schools at present. i instead starting asking ideas from Fikri for any interesting ideas which i could use in my lesson. Edore joined in our conversation and i could not thank her enough. they both gave me an exceelent idea using video or songs as set induction.

Of course, i worked on my assigment rightaway after class. it was obviously too much work to handle but i think i can manage the tension for I know I will not be the only one to experience all this tension. All my course mates as well as myself will go thorugh this hurdles and hopefully we can make it.

Wrong mood, wrong time

This week was our group presentation. I was very nervous for I was suffering from toothache. (Producing a new wisdom tooth). I was very much in pain and not much help i could get from the painkillers given by a doctor before. Initially, I just sat there and did not even bother to come to the front to join in my group presnetation for my tooth ached badly. As my group member presented, the guilt started to crawl in. I was beginning to feel bad. I felt myself selfish.How could I expect my group members to know what my slides were? How could I expect them to do all the presentation when I just sat there and listened? Lastly, I could not bear the guilt anymore that I walked up to the front. Not long after that, my slides came in and I tried hard to present my slides. I did not want to disappoint my group members for they had presented the previous slides really well. Initially,I tried hard to ignore the pain and fortunately, I managed to. I felt great and proud of myself.And of course, my group members were really proud of my as well.

After the presentation, we were given a chance to ask anything regarding the third assignment. I felt I had something to ask but i could not think of one. Maybe it was due to the fact that i had not started on it yet and also because i am already in the raya mood.I felt guily again for if only I had started on it,I would have had all my doubts (if there are) answered.

I am now half way through the third assignment. So far so good. I have not encountered any doubts yet and I hope this will go on until I hand it in.Haha..

P/s Selamat Hari Raya...

Wish 30 hours a day

Expectedly, I received a new assignment today. It is undeniably a task that requires a lot of work. I need to write four lesson plans!!!!!!!!!!! Oh no... I wonder if I could manage my time well. This was because Madam Foziah gave us additional weekly tasks namely creating namecard, pamphlet and newsletter. Besides, I need to discuss with my group members to come up with a power point presentation based on the handouts she gave us. All these were too much. I wonder if I could finish doing everything. To add, I had many other assignments for other subjects. Ssomehow,I wish there are 30 hours per day or if only Madam Foziah would consider giving not too much work at a time.

I somehow know Madam Foziah meant well. I seriously have learned a lot throughout this course. I am no longer as iliterate as before. Honestly, I was proud to teach my little brother the other day on how to extract and convert an audio. I felt good when he said I was awesome. It was a big deal for me for I have learned and known a great deal about softwares. However, I really wish Madam Foziah could give those work a little at a time for it seemed impossible for me to manage. I slept little (I am suffering from insomnia) for I tried my best to do everything she required. This was because I knew she meant well.

All in all, I wish to learn a lot from this course but hopefully the time given is sufficient for there are many other tasks of another courses waiting for me. Just the time...

'Idea-less'

I was so stressed. My pair partner, Mark too had no idea how to extract video and also on manipulating the video "Earth Song'. Honestly, we felt that this video was of a little higher level for primary kids. We felt that the main message of the video was about 'deforestation' and 'global warming' but could we teach kids those terms?

The due date was nearing and yet we had not started anything on the video. We then tried to calm each other down and focused on another video we found. It was 'The House Song'. This video was good except for a part of the song that we did not really like. it sounded like "... Kitchen. Not chicken". At times we laughed but at times we felt annoyed too. No choice because it really can make the pupils beware of the most common mistakes of diffentiating the two words.

We were still waiting for the good idea to come in. We thought about it hard until two days before the date due, we forced ourselves to crack our head.By hook or by crook, we tried to come up with an interesting idea since early morning. Until when the hot sun got hotter (afternoon), the idea came in. We were so thankful that we got started rightaway. We divided the task and much co operation was there. We decided to create an e book on that. Teaching animals might sound easy but we felt it the most appropriate thing to teach to primary kids for it is simple and can be absorbed easily. The storyline was created fast and so did the animations as well as the tutorials.

The only things that required much of our time were the lesson plan and its rationale. It was fortunate that it was a pair work. Things became so much easier with two brains. HAHA!!!!!!!!!

All in all, we are contented with whatever we produced for this second assignments.We felt it excellent enough (haha...) and flawless. Of course, we really hope this assignment reaches madam Foziah's expectation.Pray hard!!

An Unexpected New Task

We were alot noisy today. Why? This was because Madam Foziah was not around. Some of us were already in the raya mood buying and selling bus tickets, tudungs and also kuih-muih. They seemed to be so happy. I was happy to see them happy because we had not been feeling happy lately. Too many assignments lately. Having assignments and tasks from this resources course was already more than enough. What more from the other subjects? Besides, I felt happy because my malay coursemates did not get affected at all by their fasting mood. They felt energetic still and I was grateful.

However, there were some of us busy doing and discussing the second assignment. Wah... There was indeed too much work to do. Thus, we were quite surprise to receive another new task from Madam Foziah. Honestly, we were quite worried if we could finish everything on time.

As a result, we stopped doing the second assignment. Instead, we started concentrating on planning our time and the new task well. We tried hard to discuss on how to deal with all these.

Fortunately, we could still think rationally after all the hustle we were going through. We divided our task well and I was in charged of producing a material on reading. The real problem came when we needed to decide on the topic. I did not really mind about this for I was very flexible to any changes. So, my members took such a great time to come up with a topic 'interest'.

Having to do the reading part was not a problem for me. I did an e book before this. So, all I needed to do was to apply whatever skills I used on e book in this particular task. I faced no problems. Thus, I came up with an e book and its tutorial very fast. The only problem I faced was to explain on how this ebook can be used in a classroom.

I needed to imagine on how to make the lesson flowed the way I wanted it to be yet to make full use of the resources I came out with. This was actually a big task for me. What if it would not work? Worrying too much just would not help. Thus, I used all those knowledge I have gained in the previous institute and tried to apply them in this situation. Hopefully, Madam Foziah accepts and loves the idea. Pray hard!

A Satisfying Task!

E-booking is completely a new task i have never done before. I heard of e-books before but I never thought that I would produce one one day. To find a partner for yourself is quite difficult for me especially when I am a chinese. There were many requirements to fulfill and on short I decided to pair up with a malay. sadly, the malays would prefer to mix with malays maybe due to the reason that they were staying together and thus it would be easier for them to do the task together. Mark was facing the same problem as me. having no choice, we agreed to pair up but we consulted Madam Foziah for her consent for we knew pairing with each other up was a wrong thing to do. We were both chinese. Thankfully, Madam Foziah was always considerate enough. She listened to our plight and she agreed. We could not thank her more for being so understanding.

We both had agreed to discuss the e-booking through msn. We discussed it through Msn. after a long discussion, we finally made up our mind to teach our target audience who would be of standard 4 manners namely saying 'please' and 'thank you'. We felt us fortunate enough for madam Foziah did show us a few examples of excellent e-books. Through those examples, we had an idea on how to organise our e-book well. We started this task by typing out the story line using power point. Mark went to a school to shoot a few photos to be used in our e-book but they were not sufficent.

Thankfully, I am a part time tutor. During the lesson, I excused myself for 5 minutes and asked two of my pupils to act all the scenes for my e-book. The children co-operated well indeed and I promised them gifts next week.

The photos I captured were great. Mark was satisfied and I was glad. Everything was done so fast and we were indeed contented with the results. Of course, things did not just end there. We divided the work ourselves. Mark was to amend the e book namely putting in the custom animation, editting the photos and inserting an audio song into it. I, on the other hand, did the tutorial. Since there was a great coperation between us both, everything was done well.

We hope to pair up again for we both can be a suitable team partners. Won't this be great?

Something A lot Easier But Troublesome

On the same day, surprisingly, we were given another task as well. Madam FOziah refered it as an internet skill task but I could not figure out what it was until she showed us a few very interesting videos to us. The first video was not as interesting as the latter one. I honestly prefered the latter one for everything seemed to turn out so right to my taste. First, the song accompanied in the video was my favourite song. it was a korean song. This romantic song seemed to blend so well with the theme of the video. The video undobtedly made me more aware of my daily lives. I now found that our lives as a human in this world could be so interesting. This impact we had after watching the video proved that the video was a big success. I knew one of the producers who was our senior. He seemed to be so talented in this field but what a waste for he already paid the rm110k for he found that being a teacher was never a passion to him. Well, I wish him all the best in searching the right career for himself.

Honestly, after handling the video editting, the 78 of us worked so hard for this task. this task was a bit easier compared to the video editting task for it only involved two persons this time. This was because to discuss this task with two persons through yahoo messenger created less confusions compared to a group of five. Sadly, my partner who was the one who submitted the dvd last week on video editting faced much difficulty to serve the net. She had to wait for her father to come back late at night to bring her to the cyber cafe. I saw this a real trouble for her thus we had agreed to split the roles. I was to do the video and she would be doing the tutorial.

After that agreement, I started searching for suitable photos for our movie. This process was easy for we had already discussed on what to put in our video. Everything was done smoothly until the nightmare came. I faced difficulty in uploading our video in youtube. Since it was already 5am, I decided to try uploading it again the next morning.

The day with the worst nightmare came when I needed to sit in fornt of my laptop the whole day trying to upload the video again and again. I grew quite impatient at times but when i saw the posts sent by my coursemates saying that they managed to upload their videos gave me courage. At last by 6pm that evening, the upload was a success. Feeling too happy, I played it on youtube three times and headed straight for dinner. But when i was back to view it for the fourth time, the video was said to have been removed by the user. I was confused when this happened thus I asked around thorugh adec. Izzudin as well as Wai told me the same thing that since the same username and password were being used, people could delete each other's video. Having heard that, I was so frustrated for it was not easy at all to get to upload the video in youtube. Honestly, I coud not believe there was such selfish person who dared to take such an ugly move. Thus, I posted my frustration in adec and this was actually a thing that I was really regretful about. I was so emotional at that time and I wished I had not been so. To correct the mistake, I posted another adec apologising for my emotional post and I continued trying to upload the video again. After 3 hours had passed, the moment I waited finally came and my video was up again to be played in youtube.

I of course continued watching the video again and again to make sure that the video was not removed. But sadly, this time my video was said to be unavailable. My heart sank for I started feeling that all my effort had gone down to waste. My video was again unavailable and I felt sadder. I was in limbo not knowing what else i could do to amend this. At the same time, Wai was online too and I expressed my plight to her on Msn. She told me that she could view my video and I found this weird. Why couldn't I myself watch my own video when the others could watch it? Feeling too tired for bed, I asked Wai to check my video from time to time for me. Thankfully, she agreed to.

The next morning, to my relief I received a few text messages from my coursemates telling me that they could view my video and I should not be worried anymore. I was happier when Madam Foziah knew of my problem and she was considerate to 'pujuk' me back. All in all,I felt relieved but tired.

Something Predictable

I signed in adec as usual to check on the updates. Expectedly, I knew that Madam Foziah would prepare a new task for us to do. It would be about video editting the next day. I could not imagine that videos could be editted as well. As i was chatting with a genius friend (he is a future doctor) at the same time, I asked him for guidance in video editting. Surprisingly, he recommended windows movie maker. From that second onwards, I started to find this software an awesome one for it functioned widely. The fact that this friend could put everything (the guidance) in only 3 sentences made me confident in excelling in the video editting. I tried out the video editting instantly and it worked. I was so happy and of course, I could not wait to get started for the task the next day.

The next day came and I was so proud to tell a few of my coursemates about video editting. I shared the tutorial my friend gave me and they found it useful enough. Predictably, Madam Foziah gave us a video editting task but this time around the task was to be done in groups. We were asked to download 'So do you think you can dance' and there were so many parts to be downloaded. It was a huge task. Since no much time was left, we divided the task among ourselves. the two guys are to download and edit the parts of the episode, a girl was to find out what happened in the video and another girl as well as I were to do the tutorial.

Things went out fine until we were informed that the split parts needed to be saved as well. Obviously, the guys in our group did not know about this. to add, we were already back in our own hometowns. to do things together was almost impossible for us. thanks to the internet, we were able to discuss the task through yahoo messenger. we re did our video editting and finally it was completed.

Things did not end there. one of our group members told us that there was an update saying that we needed to burn our video editting in a dvd and it had to be handed in tomorrow. We were so worried for it was impossible for us to hand it in. none of us was in kl. fortunately, one of us decided to do it. Sshe volunteered to travel back to kl and handed it in. I was turthfully very touched of her sacficifes. However, another trouble arose this time. Since all the downloading and editting were done by the guys, she had no copy of them. thus, they spent so much time transfering the files in the cafe. I knew about this and thus, I volunteered to do most of the tutorial. I found this part of my responsibility to lighten the burden and hustle faced by them.

Gratefully, we managed to have our dvd handed in on time. It was such a huge task for us all. But we felt happy and relieved to be able to handle all the obstacles successfully. All these needed to be faced so as to make us ready for the worst situation to come.

So, what will our next task be? Whatever task it is, I as well as my other group members will never have doubts in our capabilities for we know we can surely make it.

A good sign?

I stopped feeling good after I knew I needed to do another unfamiliar task. it was audio editting. The time given was just too short for me. I needed more time to get comfortable with the software!!!

Wasting no time, I quickly referred to Dr Foziah's tutorial. Her tutorial was sufficient enough for me. I downloaded everything she advised in the tutorial so as not to miss anything important. I listened patiently to the songs i downloaded and listened hard to spot the differences. I took my less than an hour to comprehend everything. deep inside, i kept asking myself if what I have just learned was sufficient.

Now it was time for me to edit an audio. I found this happenning too fast that i was not completely ready. honestly, this was the first time i took such a short time to learn how to handle a software. feeling insecured still, I went to adec to check on those who had uploaded their audios. surprisingly, there was only one, Bak Zi Yang. he even uploaded a tutorial. Not bad. Wasting no time, i clicked on the tutorial hoping to guide me more. Thankfully, his tutorial was compact and I further understood about the software. I quickly clicked on the 'audacity' software for i could not wait to get started. My editting began but i encountered a problem. I could not drag the wave. knowing that Bak knew about this, I called him up and asked him. He guided me through and I regained my confidence. It was actually quite easy to handle the software. my edited MP3 file could be produced so fast but amendments needed to be done. there was only a problem I faced again and again. I found it hard to cut the wave the exact way to allow the song flow well. i edited the song countless times until the 5th time when I finally managed to edit it well.

all in all, I managed to be the second person to upload my audio in the adec. quite proud of it. haha...

Hustle

I was tired to learn today. Today's class was the usual noisy class. My coursemates were so busy talking. they were seen to have so much to talk about. i wondered what they were. as a result, Dr Foziah had to spend about 10 minutes to manage us. she was very particular about our sittings. she made us sat close to each other as long as we occupied the first front of the class. it was so uncomfortable. very stuffy. honestly,i did not like this at all. we were all crapped in such a small space. this distracted me. furthermore, everybody's whiperings grabbed my attention. I could not pay much attention to the lecture. fortunately, Dr Foziah just flashed her slides. No explanation was given for she was very confident we could comprehend her adequate notes. The notes was too much. I was new to photo editing. Thus, i wasted no time rushing back to my computer and could not wait to get started. Sadly, the computer gave me no internet access. Anxiously, I looked around. there were a number of friends who had no computer to use. yet, we were expected to try on the software that time. How could all of us do this at the same time? The number of computers were not sufficient for us all. some of us kept wondering if Dr Foziah would suggest us to go to the other computer lab like Dr Raja Maznah. Unfortunately, our wish did not come true. Thus, we wasted our one hour and a half sitting there looking around and of course, chatting. Undoubtedly, feeling ignored was very hurtful. i could not bear this feeling for long. of course, i would walk around and learned new things from my friends, especially the guys. it seemed that I would learn new things whenever i explored around the class.

Deep inside, I kept worrying about the dateline of this photo editing task. it was this Sunday. Khairil was too engrossed in his work. he looked like an expert. wasting no time, i walkedtowards him and landed myself sitting next to him. I looked at his photo editing and spontaneously he taught me how. He was so sensitive to my needs. (No wonder he has such a beautiful girlfriend.)He showed me how and undoubtedly I could not comprehend it fast. He willingly showed me another examples and this strengthened my understandings. feeling too much of input, I left. I needed a rest to digest whatever new things i had just acquired. As usual, I walked around. I saw an empty chair next to Radziman and sat on it. He was going through the same process as Khairil's. By looking at it, this reinforced my comprehension about the photo editing software.

When I reached my room, I turned on my computer. I could not wait to get started. I wanted to start on the photo editing as soon as possible before my knowledge disappeared. to my disappointment, my computer had no 'adobe photoshop' software. i asked myself "Apa ni?'. I then tried to download it but it was so slow. But i waited for almost one hour until i was told that i needed to buy it. Wai offered me her pendrive and asked me to install the software after i told her of the problem the next day. It needed payment as well. So, thankfully, my younger brother gave me his laptop. THis enabled me to try on every tutorial Dr Foziah had uploaded in the forum.

however, my nightmare came,. i was in the cinema (in KLCC) watching 'The Mummy' with my family when a text reached me. Wanjoe told me that the photo editing task had to be submitted before 12 am. It was already 10.45pm. I was so nervous that i could no longer pay attention to the movie. my big sister was disturbed with me sms-ing my friends too often."hello, I know we are in the cinema. But this problem could not be left unattended. it is an assignment. Sorry." Thankfully, I managed to reach home at 11.45pm. My photo was successfully uploaded but i took some time sending my tutorial to Dr Foziah. no words could express my hustle. Anyway, I already uploaded my photos. had it not been Wanjoe, i guessed I would have faced the same luck with a few friends of mine who were not being informed. Their reason was logical (Not informed) and i really hoped another chance would be given to them. I could say that we had learned our lesson.(Dr Foziah's rule about Sunday's submission was Saturday midnight).

It will never ever happen again.

Assignment is due on Tuesday

As usual, we had a hard time in the first lecture of the week. We dreaded this course (Assessing Young Learners) very much for stress was always everywhere. Dr Rashid loved to ask us questions that begged more questions. Thankfully, things were better today because we were asked to do group discussion =]

As expected, we had free time to chat around with friends from other group (only when we could find this ooportunity for the discussion was still going on). So, the hottest topic of the day was about resources assignment. It was due the next day. Oh my God!

Fortunately, the "Oh-my-God thingy did not happen to my group. We had actually discussed about our topic (The discussion was very much disturbed by a few new comers who loved to approach us so much just to ask for direction to certain places)and sent the draft to Dr. Foziah last week itself. Hahahaha... But still there was a little work to do. Since we were so busy with our today's schedule, our team leader, Fifee, assigned work among us. I was very delighted when I got the chance to do the assigned work with our only guy member, Syahrul. He was always known as a gentleman. moreover, he was techno-savvy.I had always known that I could count on him. Smiling gleefully, I knew that I would be learning new things about computer. Yeh!

During my French class,I received a text from Syahrul asking us to meet in the library. It was the best place we could find with all those facilities available. One p.m sharp, we met up in the computer room. Sadly, Syahrul was not as effecient as expected. He was quite blurred for his head ached. Patiently, I guided him through the process. As time went on, his concentration disappeared completely. As a result, I was very panicked. I worried so much for there was always a limitation whenever I handled a computer. The fact that his face grew redder made me worried even more. I knew he was sick. I thus, tried asking him questions to guide him through and thankfully it worked.

Thanks to our smart brains that we could think of sending the finished work to our e-mail since we had no thumbdrive. Everything was saved and we hurried home.

In short, the work was done in such a short time but effective. I was proud of our work and I could not wait to have our work presented tomorrow. Wish us luck!

Another headache?

I attended the lecture for the second time. Was there any improvement this time around? Honestly, I myself did not know of this answer. To say there was, it only happened when there was a time when it struck me to ask questions but then it was a no when I did not even ask a question to my lecturer. Instead, I allowed her to go on and on until my brain was fully bombarded with too much knowledge. For me, I did not treat it as knowledge for it was a burden for me. It made me an unhappy student for I have always treated knowledge as something gifted, not a burden. Was there something going wrong again this time?

My heart felt when I then realized how much things that I needed to complete. Assignments were everywhere yet I left them unattended. No attention was paid to them until I became conscious of my course mates who were so into the assignments themselves. Deeply inside, I admired them much for none of them were seen to have given up with this course. True, there were a few who were exactly like me, someone who completely had no idea what Dr. Foziah was lecturing about. But they rushed too much (I think) for I was still blurred of the assignments. I did not know how the assignments should be handed in etc. Honestly, the instructions given were too complex yet they were delivered in a fast pace. Thus, I could not comprehend the instructions at all plus with the fact that my mind was already blurred.

Thankfully, there was always an alternative for any problem. Hence, I went and sought for her assistants. Well, I could say that they were excellent assistants for they explained to me patiently just to solve my doubts. My every question was attended to with patience. However, my heart felt when I was told that it was an individual assignment and it was to be handed in next week! I was short of time! I had not got started yet the date due was nearing.

True, I could waste no much time for now. But, I needed much time. It was never easy for me to do things involving technology. Honestly, I did not mind a single bit if I needed to produce teaching aids manually namely drawing a picture and colouring it followed by cutting and pasting it. I would do anything as long as I could stay away from technology. Deep inside, I knew very well that this was impossible. This is a technology course. Thus the percentage of me to stay away from technology was almost a nil. So, I could not give up. I needed to get the technological knowledge but from where?

Well, I am very grateful that this world is full of things. Even my small world (The Malaya University) has plenty of things. There are books, lecturers, computers, internets, friends, undergraduates everywhere in the campus itself. These are the solutions to my problems and doubts. If I use all these things to the fullest, my assignment will no longer be a problem for me.

I am going to do my assignment now. But, will I face problem(s) again this time? I have no idea but I will pray hard.

Blurred !

I am so blurred. I had no idea what Dr. Foziah was talking about. She fed us with all those software terms which i never heard of. Worst, she went on and on and i then became nervous.
I turned to my right and looked sadly at how responsive my course mates were towards Dr. Foziah's lectures. The same went to my left. In short, almost everyone around me knew what the terms were about.

I turned to a friend next to me, Husna. she was so busy listening to the lecture that she did not even realise me staring at her for long. No choice, i poked her. She jumped and wasting no time, i asked,

"Husna, what is a keepvid ? "

"Oh... Keepvid can be used to download videos from Google, Youtube etc."

Though i was told about keepvid and i am now in the position to know what a keepvid is, i am not content enough. I envy my course mates their knowledge towards technology. I envy Husna the way she answered my question effortlessly.

Things could have turned all right but it was too late. I was so egoistic that i pretended to know though Dr. Foziah had asked us so many times if there was a question. Anyway, i could not be blamed for this. I was scared if my course mates would laugh at me. They would wonder if i am living in the 21st century.

Now, regret is all over me. If only i posed some questions to Dr. Foziah, things would not have turned so wrong.

So, in present, i am facing a predicament for i need to hand in the first assignment within a fortnight. True, i am still blurred. But things will no longer stay the same. Tomorrow, i will turn into the new me. I will never be afraid again to ask so as to be familiar with the terms i want to know. Just ask and i will stop being blurred.

Before i pen down, i really wish Dr. Foziah has read the mail i sent her for i want her to know of my technological weaknesses so badly. I want her to know them so that she may want to slow down her pace during lecture. Or she want to consider my suggestion to have her lecture accompanied by visual aids to assit my comprehension. Anyway, it was just a suggestion. Dr. Foziah may have a better idea after so many years of teaching. Of course, things will turn out different only if i posed questions in her next lecture or she adopts and applies some different teaching styles. I as well as my course mates will not know until the day comes but the most important thing is that i do not want to appear blurred again.