Blurred !

I am so blurred. I had no idea what Dr. Foziah was talking about. She fed us with all those software terms which i never heard of. Worst, she went on and on and i then became nervous.
I turned to my right and looked sadly at how responsive my course mates were towards Dr. Foziah's lectures. The same went to my left. In short, almost everyone around me knew what the terms were about.

I turned to a friend next to me, Husna. she was so busy listening to the lecture that she did not even realise me staring at her for long. No choice, i poked her. She jumped and wasting no time, i asked,

"Husna, what is a keepvid ? "

"Oh... Keepvid can be used to download videos from Google, Youtube etc."

Though i was told about keepvid and i am now in the position to know what a keepvid is, i am not content enough. I envy my course mates their knowledge towards technology. I envy Husna the way she answered my question effortlessly.

Things could have turned all right but it was too late. I was so egoistic that i pretended to know though Dr. Foziah had asked us so many times if there was a question. Anyway, i could not be blamed for this. I was scared if my course mates would laugh at me. They would wonder if i am living in the 21st century.

Now, regret is all over me. If only i posed some questions to Dr. Foziah, things would not have turned so wrong.

So, in present, i am facing a predicament for i need to hand in the first assignment within a fortnight. True, i am still blurred. But things will no longer stay the same. Tomorrow, i will turn into the new me. I will never be afraid again to ask so as to be familiar with the terms i want to know. Just ask and i will stop being blurred.

Before i pen down, i really wish Dr. Foziah has read the mail i sent her for i want her to know of my technological weaknesses so badly. I want her to know them so that she may want to slow down her pace during lecture. Or she want to consider my suggestion to have her lecture accompanied by visual aids to assit my comprehension. Anyway, it was just a suggestion. Dr. Foziah may have a better idea after so many years of teaching. Of course, things will turn out different only if i posed questions in her next lecture or she adopts and applies some different teaching styles. I as well as my course mates will not know until the day comes but the most important thing is that i do not want to appear blurred again.