Hustle

I was tired to learn today. Today's class was the usual noisy class. My coursemates were so busy talking. they were seen to have so much to talk about. i wondered what they were. as a result, Dr Foziah had to spend about 10 minutes to manage us. she was very particular about our sittings. she made us sat close to each other as long as we occupied the first front of the class. it was so uncomfortable. very stuffy. honestly,i did not like this at all. we were all crapped in such a small space. this distracted me. furthermore, everybody's whiperings grabbed my attention. I could not pay much attention to the lecture. fortunately, Dr Foziah just flashed her slides. No explanation was given for she was very confident we could comprehend her adequate notes. The notes was too much. I was new to photo editing. Thus, i wasted no time rushing back to my computer and could not wait to get started. Sadly, the computer gave me no internet access. Anxiously, I looked around. there were a number of friends who had no computer to use. yet, we were expected to try on the software that time. How could all of us do this at the same time? The number of computers were not sufficient for us all. some of us kept wondering if Dr Foziah would suggest us to go to the other computer lab like Dr Raja Maznah. Unfortunately, our wish did not come true. Thus, we wasted our one hour and a half sitting there looking around and of course, chatting. Undoubtedly, feeling ignored was very hurtful. i could not bear this feeling for long. of course, i would walk around and learned new things from my friends, especially the guys. it seemed that I would learn new things whenever i explored around the class.

Deep inside, I kept worrying about the dateline of this photo editing task. it was this Sunday. Khairil was too engrossed in his work. he looked like an expert. wasting no time, i walkedtowards him and landed myself sitting next to him. I looked at his photo editing and spontaneously he taught me how. He was so sensitive to my needs. (No wonder he has such a beautiful girlfriend.)He showed me how and undoubtedly I could not comprehend it fast. He willingly showed me another examples and this strengthened my understandings. feeling too much of input, I left. I needed a rest to digest whatever new things i had just acquired. As usual, I walked around. I saw an empty chair next to Radziman and sat on it. He was going through the same process as Khairil's. By looking at it, this reinforced my comprehension about the photo editing software.

When I reached my room, I turned on my computer. I could not wait to get started. I wanted to start on the photo editing as soon as possible before my knowledge disappeared. to my disappointment, my computer had no 'adobe photoshop' software. i asked myself "Apa ni?'. I then tried to download it but it was so slow. But i waited for almost one hour until i was told that i needed to buy it. Wai offered me her pendrive and asked me to install the software after i told her of the problem the next day. It needed payment as well. So, thankfully, my younger brother gave me his laptop. THis enabled me to try on every tutorial Dr Foziah had uploaded in the forum.

however, my nightmare came,. i was in the cinema (in KLCC) watching 'The Mummy' with my family when a text reached me. Wanjoe told me that the photo editing task had to be submitted before 12 am. It was already 10.45pm. I was so nervous that i could no longer pay attention to the movie. my big sister was disturbed with me sms-ing my friends too often."hello, I know we are in the cinema. But this problem could not be left unattended. it is an assignment. Sorry." Thankfully, I managed to reach home at 11.45pm. My photo was successfully uploaded but i took some time sending my tutorial to Dr Foziah. no words could express my hustle. Anyway, I already uploaded my photos. had it not been Wanjoe, i guessed I would have faced the same luck with a few friends of mine who were not being informed. Their reason was logical (Not informed) and i really hoped another chance would be given to them. I could say that we had learned our lesson.(Dr Foziah's rule about Sunday's submission was Saturday midnight).

It will never ever happen again.

Assignment is due on Tuesday

As usual, we had a hard time in the first lecture of the week. We dreaded this course (Assessing Young Learners) very much for stress was always everywhere. Dr Rashid loved to ask us questions that begged more questions. Thankfully, things were better today because we were asked to do group discussion =]

As expected, we had free time to chat around with friends from other group (only when we could find this ooportunity for the discussion was still going on). So, the hottest topic of the day was about resources assignment. It was due the next day. Oh my God!

Fortunately, the "Oh-my-God thingy did not happen to my group. We had actually discussed about our topic (The discussion was very much disturbed by a few new comers who loved to approach us so much just to ask for direction to certain places)and sent the draft to Dr. Foziah last week itself. Hahahaha... But still there was a little work to do. Since we were so busy with our today's schedule, our team leader, Fifee, assigned work among us. I was very delighted when I got the chance to do the assigned work with our only guy member, Syahrul. He was always known as a gentleman. moreover, he was techno-savvy.I had always known that I could count on him. Smiling gleefully, I knew that I would be learning new things about computer. Yeh!

During my French class,I received a text from Syahrul asking us to meet in the library. It was the best place we could find with all those facilities available. One p.m sharp, we met up in the computer room. Sadly, Syahrul was not as effecient as expected. He was quite blurred for his head ached. Patiently, I guided him through the process. As time went on, his concentration disappeared completely. As a result, I was very panicked. I worried so much for there was always a limitation whenever I handled a computer. The fact that his face grew redder made me worried even more. I knew he was sick. I thus, tried asking him questions to guide him through and thankfully it worked.

Thanks to our smart brains that we could think of sending the finished work to our e-mail since we had no thumbdrive. Everything was saved and we hurried home.

In short, the work was done in such a short time but effective. I was proud of our work and I could not wait to have our work presented tomorrow. Wish us luck!

Another headache?

I attended the lecture for the second time. Was there any improvement this time around? Honestly, I myself did not know of this answer. To say there was, it only happened when there was a time when it struck me to ask questions but then it was a no when I did not even ask a question to my lecturer. Instead, I allowed her to go on and on until my brain was fully bombarded with too much knowledge. For me, I did not treat it as knowledge for it was a burden for me. It made me an unhappy student for I have always treated knowledge as something gifted, not a burden. Was there something going wrong again this time?

My heart felt when I then realized how much things that I needed to complete. Assignments were everywhere yet I left them unattended. No attention was paid to them until I became conscious of my course mates who were so into the assignments themselves. Deeply inside, I admired them much for none of them were seen to have given up with this course. True, there were a few who were exactly like me, someone who completely had no idea what Dr. Foziah was lecturing about. But they rushed too much (I think) for I was still blurred of the assignments. I did not know how the assignments should be handed in etc. Honestly, the instructions given were too complex yet they were delivered in a fast pace. Thus, I could not comprehend the instructions at all plus with the fact that my mind was already blurred.

Thankfully, there was always an alternative for any problem. Hence, I went and sought for her assistants. Well, I could say that they were excellent assistants for they explained to me patiently just to solve my doubts. My every question was attended to with patience. However, my heart felt when I was told that it was an individual assignment and it was to be handed in next week! I was short of time! I had not got started yet the date due was nearing.

True, I could waste no much time for now. But, I needed much time. It was never easy for me to do things involving technology. Honestly, I did not mind a single bit if I needed to produce teaching aids manually namely drawing a picture and colouring it followed by cutting and pasting it. I would do anything as long as I could stay away from technology. Deep inside, I knew very well that this was impossible. This is a technology course. Thus the percentage of me to stay away from technology was almost a nil. So, I could not give up. I needed to get the technological knowledge but from where?

Well, I am very grateful that this world is full of things. Even my small world (The Malaya University) has plenty of things. There are books, lecturers, computers, internets, friends, undergraduates everywhere in the campus itself. These are the solutions to my problems and doubts. If I use all these things to the fullest, my assignment will no longer be a problem for me.

I am going to do my assignment now. But, will I face problem(s) again this time? I have no idea but I will pray hard.

Blurred !

I am so blurred. I had no idea what Dr. Foziah was talking about. She fed us with all those software terms which i never heard of. Worst, she went on and on and i then became nervous.
I turned to my right and looked sadly at how responsive my course mates were towards Dr. Foziah's lectures. The same went to my left. In short, almost everyone around me knew what the terms were about.

I turned to a friend next to me, Husna. she was so busy listening to the lecture that she did not even realise me staring at her for long. No choice, i poked her. She jumped and wasting no time, i asked,

"Husna, what is a keepvid ? "

"Oh... Keepvid can be used to download videos from Google, Youtube etc."

Though i was told about keepvid and i am now in the position to know what a keepvid is, i am not content enough. I envy my course mates their knowledge towards technology. I envy Husna the way she answered my question effortlessly.

Things could have turned all right but it was too late. I was so egoistic that i pretended to know though Dr. Foziah had asked us so many times if there was a question. Anyway, i could not be blamed for this. I was scared if my course mates would laugh at me. They would wonder if i am living in the 21st century.

Now, regret is all over me. If only i posed some questions to Dr. Foziah, things would not have turned so wrong.

So, in present, i am facing a predicament for i need to hand in the first assignment within a fortnight. True, i am still blurred. But things will no longer stay the same. Tomorrow, i will turn into the new me. I will never be afraid again to ask so as to be familiar with the terms i want to know. Just ask and i will stop being blurred.

Before i pen down, i really wish Dr. Foziah has read the mail i sent her for i want her to know of my technological weaknesses so badly. I want her to know them so that she may want to slow down her pace during lecture. Or she want to consider my suggestion to have her lecture accompanied by visual aids to assit my comprehension. Anyway, it was just a suggestion. Dr. Foziah may have a better idea after so many years of teaching. Of course, things will turn out different only if i posed questions in her next lecture or she adopts and applies some different teaching styles. I as well as my course mates will not know until the day comes but the most important thing is that i do not want to appear blurred again.